**Warning! This is the real me...please don't judge** :)
Ok so the last few months have been a huge transition for me & our family. I fell like I have truly been going through this identity crisis. I have had a full time job since I was 16 & now I am a stay at home mommy (SAHM)! I had always dreamt of being able to stay home & all the fun I would have. When the time came things were not how I imagined.
I was so used to a scheduled 9-5 job with an inbox & outbox. I would leave work feelingaccomplished & see the progress I had made that day. Well as a SAHM this is totally different...I would end my day wondering WHAT DID I DO TODAY!?! I would feel like all I had done during the day is clean the house (AGAIN), laundry (MORE), feed Hallee & change diapers, etc. Well for me this just was not working. I would often feel like a failure when Hubby would come home & dinner was not on the table & the house was not spotless.
I know that I am truly making a bigger impact on my daughter then I realize but this was hard. There were many nights the first weeks where Mike would say "Maybe you should go back to work...you are going crazy!" Poor guy! I just had this guilt where I felt like there are many moms that would give anything to stay home & here I am blessed to be able to do so & I don't like it...what is wrong with me!
Fast forward 2 months & I am definitely still in transition but I am doing SO much better. I have come to realize that I don't have to be perfect Suzy Homemaker I just have to be a happy mom & wife. If that means that I don't clean today so that I can hang out with a friend, great! If we eat leftover one night so that Hallee & I can spend the day outside, awesome! I am lucky to have a fantastic husband who would rather me be refreshed at the end of the day then have slaved around the house. I am not saying that I have it all figured out & am still working on it but I'm getting there! I would love any words of wisdom & covet your prayers as I become the best SAHM for my family.
Here is a great article my sweet husband send me that really helped me not feel alone.